We're on a break. I'm on a break. I'm finding myself again.

I want to love the things I once loved. I want to get excited about the things that used to excite me. I want the passion I had before.

Putting all of your energy into one single thing is not good. Not good for anyone. Whether it be a person, hobby, food, drugs, drink... that feeling of 'I can't live without' is not the way people should live. It's not the way I should live. It's not the way I want to live.

I'm going to start writing again. I'm going to find out about the college newspaper. Writing used to make me so happy, but when love came along I just abandoned it. All of my creative energy went into loving someone. I'm not saying love and passion are bad things, but it all needs to be moderated. I can't have all one thing at one part of my life, then all another at the next part. I need it all at the same time. I HAVE to stop focussing on one single thing to get me through the day. Because, well, it's ME that gets me through the day. ME. All this other stuff is just trees along the journey. Pretty trees - trees I love - but trees nontheless.