Everything will be sailing along quite happily, but then there's one minor hitch and I am stressing and paranoid and back to the 'blackness' once again.

So, my aim is not to get too carried away with things.

I'm trying to remain grounded at all times - even when I am experiencing my highs, I am going to make sure I keep a fairly realistic perspective on things. I really don't want this to consume me, and I think that the only way I can prevent it from doing so is to keep one step ahead of my feelings.

It's as if, when I'm on a high-point, I'll sail along with a daft smile etched across my face and my eyes closed. Then, as I'm floating along my little eutopia with my eyes closed in blissful ignorance, I fall down a deep black hole.

I am probably being melodramatic once again, but I refuse to feel guilty.

I am trying to get my head around this and this is the best way (from what I can tell) to go about it.