Here goes anyway...

Around February I used to email a boy via some very stupid website. Anyway, we got on really well and I really looked forward to reading his messages. He seemed to as well - which was all very strange for little ol' moi. But, after a while the emails stopped. I wasn't sure why, so just assumed boredom on his part. I was pretty miffed about the whole thing and, dare I say it, a little upset. But I got over it and (although didn't forget), just moved along with my boredom.

But then on Sunday, about three months after we'd stopped emailing, oh - lo and behold - there was an email from him in my inbox.

Girly giggling and madness ensued.

It's stupid because I don't even know him. (And, no, don't think I'm one of those girls who has pathetic online 'boyfriends' - as I am not. I have never been involved in anything like that before. Just thought I'd get that straight.)

This is so embarrassing to type... I feel stupid. He's so sweet, intelligent, likes the same things as me.... and is as cute as hell.

I'm cringing as I read that back. It's so unlike me. But I don't know... these are strange feelings to me. My crush on 'C' seems almost laughable now (he is still the most attractive lad at my school - but I don't really know him, so he is probably an arsehole. I'll just continue to lust from afar on that one... even though I probably won't see him after Friday. But anyway - 'C' is not the issue here.)

I don't quite know what I'm trying to say here.