So...

I stayed in bed until 1.00pm today. I just couldn't be bothered to get up. I didn't see the point. Hannah's off with Michael, so I'm supposed to go and see her later. Well, actually she should have phoned by now. She's probably forgotten.

My friends have been going out without me. I don't mean Hannah, because she's a seperate thing. She's my cousin and therefore has her own set of friends and I have my own too. But my own friends (from school) have deserted me. They've been going out and not inviting me. It hurts. They always fucking ask me for advise and tell me to cheer them up - but why the hell should I? Maybe, for once, I'd like to be the one being cheered up. No one ever thinks about that.

Arg. I wanted this entry to be clean from 'the blackness'. But it crept in once again. I just can't get it out of my head. I wish it would go away.